scared of M/T's at 24 n/j

hey ppl,

this is my first post and i do not have a M3 yet but will be looking for somthing soon. I am 24 and only heard of the M3 on comercials till i saw it and fell in love this past weekend scrolling around different dealerships.
well one year ago, i bought a brand new 03 si and totaled it with 700 miles on it. i was stopped on a hill waiting for traffic to clear, there was a truck coming at the end of the pack (compared to a flat bed tow-truck) with his signal on, i was thinking he was turning where i was pulling out, so i pulled up and stalled it in the intersection and the truck didnt turn either
.................bammmmmmmmm. he hit me at my drivers door at 50mph, my car flew across the medium (4 lane highway) and rested on the other side of the highway. the truck went on its side.
i was knocked to the passenger side, the drivers door was crushed all the way on the drivers seat (only 3 inches was showing next to the center council(sp). if i had my seatbelt on, i would have been killed.

I only had fractred ribs and a partial collapse lung as the extent of my injuries. i was also knocked out and came to when an emt was putting a neckbrace on me.
all this said, I do not want a a/t for performance reasons but am scared of getting a m/t. i am currently driving a 03 ZX2 auto which i hate in everyway but got it b/c there was a $4000 rebate on it, lowered it to $11k financed.
anyways.........what would you guys do. :?: